It's been a year. A year, I spent 15 months trying to figure out what did I wrong. I spent 15 months trying to understand how could you love me one day, and say you had absolutely no feelings for me the next :'(. I spent my 2 entire summer trying to get over you, thinking this another school year I would be okay. And I saw you occasionally like your birthday and other event I wouldn't care. But I'm still not over you.And I don't think I ever will be. Because as much as I try to deny it, you were, and will always be my first love. But you were also my first heartbreak. And every time I see you I'm field with rage, anger, and sadness. I'm enraged that you don't give me any acknowledgement. You pretend that you don't even know me and it hurt me so much. And I am angry that you destroyed me like that and don't even care. And finally, I am sad. Sad that I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that you will truly never come back to me. Never like me, and never love me like you did. And until now i'm always pretend that I forget you the fact is not.
I stalk you but nothings happen. I ask your sister if How are you. But I'm glad that you're still o.k buti na lang.
Me: musta na kayo jan sa Luzon?
Rowielyn: O.k naman kami ate..di naman kami binaha
Me: Buti naman Ehh kuya mo? Balita ko baha sila
(after 5 minutes)
Rowielyn: kakatawag lang namin nagising sya o.k naman daw sya
Me: Buti o.k kau
Rowielyn: Thanks sa concern ate :)
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